I Am NOT Sorry!

I am not sorry about how I am. I am not sorry about who I am. I am not sorry for coming down and changing the way i think, changing the desires of my heart. I am not sorry for wanting better for you. I am not sorry for the changes I made to go a different path for myself and the whole family. I am not sorry for learning and growing from all my issues.

I have made a tremendous amount of mistakes and I am in the life now where I am trying right all my wrong. Know that I can only say I am sorry so many times for something I only made one mistake for. and I know for sure I have apologized for it in tears and at times I had no words or a label of the mistake i just knew i was truly sorry. But again, i can say it a thousand times, but its up to you to receive it, and move up with it.

In mistakes we are to learn and grow from them. In mistakes we do our best to never do it again. We may fall but we have to get up, take notes on what to do next time and what not to do. I feel as though i have done that. But i do see that you have not forgiven or learned and grew from this. You have not been willing to let go of anger and bitterness of the past. I will leave that up to you and God. I am here to support and do my best to right my wrongs the best way I know how. And if my love for you does not show that, then you have been blinded by your own anger. This is a choice you decided to keep going down. I cannot make this choice for you to change. All I can do is pray that you do.

For the last and final time from the past to the present time (i am sure there are more but for different things) I AM SORRY! But what you will not do is hold it against me.